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| Tarissa on the left, giving me and Dino a dirty look.
I didn't even know she was right there, let alone watching.
Hahhaaa, caught on camera. xD
LOL.
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| Last night, Dino and Marin came to Mississauga as usual. The three of us drank and did a certain uplifting jacked-inducing substance. Of course Tarissa didn't drink, but she did do that certain substance. We ran into many people and it was really fun but fucked. Then Bri stayed over at my house. I haven't actually hung out with her in sooo long. It was weird.
Today was supposed to be a sober day. I got little sleep and me and Bri finally got up and went out for a smoke at around 12. Then "Marin" (Dino in disguise) phoned. And minutes after I got off the phone, Tarissa appeared in front of us. ^_^
Then we went to Streetsville on this unseasonably hot and humid day. It was sooo fucking hot. Then it turned into crazy tornadoe-like winds and then a thunderstorm. Tarissa and Bri, of course, did the previously mentioned substance and me, Dino and Marin drank, again. Then, we finished off my liquid codeine and each took a Tylenol 1. These random gangsterish guys were at Timmie's. At first they sketched me out. They were really random and weird. I pushed past them at one point to get to the bathroom and they looked at me and said, "You gonna go snort some E? I got some blow."
Later on, we were all on the heater, then I tried to get off and tripped and fell completely off. I was fine though. Then me and Dino walked down to the stairs and my ears went clogged and I sat down. Then, I convinced myself I was fine and stood up. Then my ears reclogged and I lost all my balance and I began to fall over. Dino said he asked if I could hear him and I said yes, then he asked again and I ddin't reply. My face had gone realllyyyyy pale and he laid me down and started to lightly slap my cheeks, calling my name, and I didn't do anything. Then he started to do it harder and I came to. It was really fucked up. I was like, wobbly and lightheaded and a slight headache and shaky and behhhhh.
Then we went to Timmie's when I could finally stand and right as we were about to go inside, there was a blackout. It only lasted 5-10 minutes though. We got some water, and I explained to the other 3 whores, (^_~) what happened. Then shortly after, my dad came to pick me, Tarissa and Bri up. And now I am here.
I'm feeling much better. I hadn't eaten much today, so I had a delicious BLT. I'm going to go to sleep soon though, so I can wake up for going to the twins or whatever. *siiighh* What a very interesting night.
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| He's been running through my dreams.
And it's driving me crazy, it seems.
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| I've been thinking about what Dino said.
How he must be in a house and blah when he's doing drugs.
It made me think back to all my memories.
I love memories.
I was always outside.
Alwaysalwaysalways,
I'm glad I'm not Chihiro from ef.
Where all my memories are erased at the end of the day.
Well, after a certain amount of hours, I forget how many.
Being outside was part of my previous highs and fun times though.
Of course, being in a house is fine, being in a house plays a big part.
But being outside, in Streetsville, where youcan run into anyone and everyone was amazing.
Drinking Colt 45s behind a weird shed thing beside the tracks, ending up at the Bowling Alley on E, freesing outside in the snow on E, K, Alcohol, and hash, sitting atop the heater smashing my beer bottle behind me e v e r y time, which was often too, etc.
I miss Danny.
And Judo.
And ending up at Mike's house most of the time when his parents didn't care amount how many people were there.
Me and Judo, high as shit, thinking it's a good idea to roll a peanut butter & nutella spliff and trying to smoke it.
Tarissa and me falling in the snow in Mike's backyard when she slammed her head off the fireplace just after a session and her refusing to get out of the snow.
Bri and me dancing in Mike's basement without our shirts and Cailyn playing music beside us having fun even though she wasn't jacked like us.
The first time I ever did K, with Mike in his basement when he excitedly called me to come over because he knew how much I wanted to try it.
When Mike's mom gave me and Mike Kahlua, then Bri came down, took the last gulp and a forced her not to swallow and to give it to me, so we transfered it by mouth like dumb drunk retards.
The first time I ever tried E, railing it with Danny & Mike, after waiting for Lee to come and chop it to us.
The first time I ever smoked pot, I was with Jackie in the little house thing at the park and she pulled out a pipe and I was like, "WHAAAT."
The sketch on Christmas Day after I first got high off E, the horrible sketch.
The fucking bunny that stole Mine, Bri's and Michelle's souls. (I still want my soul back)
We chewed that bunny to bits.
When I first saw James high, and I was so drunk and excited that he was high and I went on and on about having to talk to him because it was hilarious.
When I first met Lexy.
When I first stayed the night at Dino's and Marin's.
Getting booked by my parents when Me, Jackie and her bf (at the time) came back to the house high.
When my parents first found a pack of cigarettes at my house.
The second time they found a pack of cigarettes at my house.
Then when I finally told my mom I smoke. And then when my dad found out through Bri's dad.
When Tarissa had her first pull of a smoke, ever. In Japanese class, I asked her to come out for a smoke with me. When Bri did too. After school one day, curious as shit.
When I went high to class the first time.
UTI. So many UTI memories.
Me and Austin getting booked for being on the roof of Trinity. We got yelled at.
When iw as climbing Timmie's and random birds flew out at me and scared me shitles I jumped off.
When me and Bri were climbing the train tracks thing by Michelle's house. I was so scared. Bri, not so much.
Acid day.
Acid sketch day.
Me and Danny thinking it's a good idea to walk along the pipes on top of the mini-market when we blazed on the roof. Then getting yelled at by a Chinese guy waving a butcher's knife at us. We jumped down and booke dit pretty fast.
When Mike picked up the nerf ball on the lawn outside of Judo's old house and... not getting into that. ;]
Halloween last year (2007), when me and Mike ditched everyone to go to his house and do soemthing naughty. Then his mom was upstairs and awake and we couldn't.
The box. Just, t h e b o x .
Then the box got thrown out by Mike's dad. ;~;
Mine and Danny's fights to the death. Everyday. :D
The first few Fridays, with me, Tarissa and Street.
I'll stfu now.
I just love thinking back.
It's makes me happy.
But, to remember the good, it's good to remember the bad too. Just because, they're a part of it too.
I have a question for Marin, I hope I remember it and am able to ask him on Friday.
I'm surprised my Grandpa's death hit me as hard as it did. I just realized today, which really sucks, I'm so much like him. I love him. I wish I could've talked with him more before he died. He's the only grandpa I really liked. My dad's dad and dad's step dad, I wanna shoot them. I will be the one to kill them, by whatever means possible.
My cousin on my dad's side, (my ONLY cousin on my dad's side) Felicia, shares my pain. She hates them too.
And I don't 'hate' people, I just dislike. But for them, it's h a t e .
And Dinodinodino. I know you'll read this. I love youu.<3
And yes Tarissa, I love you too.
(No one else reads it. xD)
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| Doki doki~
I like this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ni1NSP_UABk&feature=related
Hmph. ;]
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